I dont understand.... i thought paid for enough the first time around....
why does my body have to act different
both tom and my doctor said yes...it is very odd that the liver came back.
i want to feel good
i want to be healthy
i want to go have fun
i want to eat
i want to know what to eat
i am so so so so sad
I always thought that if i died i really hoped it wasnt a slow one
not live and not death
i want to play
i want to swim
i dont suggest being around me..... i am sooooo sooo mean...
i have no control of how horrible I am acting
the chemo isnt very bad.... no this is all just as bad as i was without the chemo
how can i learn that life has joy again
how am i going to just think that life is really really cruel
maybe the chemo is starting to change things but it is soooo small i cant tell
my compter seems like it is going to turn on fire...it is so hot...
please dont add that.... i cant deal with that
fuck fuck fuck
i want to be able to play and i cant yet
i get a few minutes to dream about fun
but it goes away
i am a miserable human being