I am losing my mind. I just dont know how much more my body can handle this. There is no longer any room inside my abdomen.... sooo hungry can eat really.... hurts.
I am starting chemo on Monday. I believe this is the last ditch effort.
my hope..... i want to live and get to play again. All I want again is to play.
i got suggested by 3 of my healers to head to chemo... see if it can by some time.
i am surprised at how quick i went from thinking that it was no roblem to really considering that there is not much hope left. For a while recently I felt sure that I was on the path to death.... oddly things have changed and I feel again like live is the path but fuck...i have no idea how to get there from here..... it pretty much is horrible again.
you can send things to either
38 sunset dr
milford, ma 0175
30 Welles Ave #3
Dorchester, MA 02124
I have no idea how much I will be at one or the other... the idea is one week of chemo in milford and then two weeks in dorchester......who the fuck knows
you can keep trying to call me but i am losing my ability to have much conversation... maybe you will get me and maybe not.... i have no idea if i will call back....
i appreciate every thing i get and hear about but i am once again at the point where i do not respond.