Saturday, December 5, 2009
This level of depression is new to me. I have never experienced this. I feel like an awful human being. People come to visit and I have nothing to say to them. It must be torture for them to be around me. Its torture for me to be around me. Who am I. This me bares little resemblance to any me I have ever known. I am eating out of depression. I am eating all the time. Giving my organs more of a workout than I think they should have. I just started taking medicine. One of the side effects is supposedly increased appetite. When that kicks in it is going to be horrible. I do need to gain weight but my food choices are not being that great. How do people get through this kind of thing. How am I going to get through this?